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December 2010
4 posts
I once was a kid all I had was a dream.
I think that I’m going to start a new blog. One that defines me as an adult. I’m going through a whole new slew of adventures and this blog has served me well, but I need something that is a fresh start. I feel like my perspective has changed. Life is a different story now than it was five years ago.
“Tell Mommy I’m sorry, this life is a party, I’m never growing...
Are we gonna do this or what?
I got a letter from Jake two days ago! I’m so relieved. He wasn’t avoiding me. That makes me feel so much better. That letter comes and everything that I have been worrying about disappears. Right now I’m listening to Kiss me or Not by Thompson Square and playing solitaire on the computer. It’s been a fun day :]
Show me how you Burlesque
Burlesque was AMAZING! Christina Aguilera is an incredible singer, she completely blew me away. It was a fun show and it had a great cast. I liked it. I’m definitely buying the soundtrack for that one. So good!
November 2010
7 posts
Thanksgiving Weekend.
Thanksgiving weekend was good. I worked 8-2pm on Black Friday and then met my sister and my mom at the mall and we went shopping. My grandpa gave us each 100 dollars for Christmas to spend. I got two pairs of new jeans, two tank tops and a sweater, a coin purse, Ralph Lauren Wild perfume, a loofah, and free candle holders (with the purchase of my fragrance at Ulta). I also worked last night from...
Where'd you go?
“I miss you so. Seems like it’s been forever since you’ve been gone. Please come back home.”
I’ve been checking the mail religiously and still no letter. I hate waiting. But I really can’t complain. I know it’s because he’s doing more important things. I had a dream about him last night. I dreamed that I got to see him. Well, not him exactly but I...
The Jacob Box
Every time I get a letter from Jake, after I finish reading it, I put it in the Jacob Box. I have every letter he’s sent in that box. I like to re-read them when I feel alone, or when I want to feel close to him. It makes me feel better. It’s hard sometimes to wait for the next one to come. It’s pretty emotional. You get all excited at the start of each day. “Today could be...
Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone.
Don’t ever watch the movie Dear John when you are miles away from the man you love. It is such a heart breaker. I miss Jake, and this is not the type of movie that makes me feel any better about not being near him. It’s such a sad, terrible story that happens to have it’s moments of life and love at their finest mixed in between the pain and sorrow. I just hate that it...
October 2010
6 posts
Happy The Hard Way
by Every Avenue
Tell me it’s over
Tell me we finally made it through
The comfort in silence
Turns to panic once again
We’re caught in a land slide
We’re dirty, we’re broken black and blue
The feeling is lost
In every signal that we send
How could a love hurt this bad?
How could we lose all that we had?
Why do we follow through?
What keeps us hanging on?
We...
Turtle Brownies
I have realized that I really enjoy baking. Lately I’ve been making a lot of different things. I’ve made cookies, and all sorts of brownies. Tonight, I’m making turtle brownies, and they smell really good. I think I enjoy the process of baking more than the end result. I like mixing together the ingredients and I like pouring the batter into the pan. I like the way it smells as...
So basically, I'm kind of exhausted.
I’m not really sure why, other than I think I have a sinus infection, and they always wear me out. Migraines usually follow, and are pretty consistent when this happens so I’m a little nervous. Last year around this time was completely miserable for me. I was sick for three months. I’m a little worried that all the progress I’ve made with my migraines will back track since...
Nothing can stop me here with you.
I’ve been thinking about Jake a lot lately. My birthday is on Wednesday and it’s kind of sad not to spend it with him. I love that man. He amazes me in every way and it’s hard to be apart from him. But at the same time, I’m glad that he is doing what was asked of him, and that he feels good about his decision. A mission is both a blessing and a trial. It tests your faith in...
September 2010
12 posts
The World Goes On written by Ariana Christine...
Verse 1:
Take a look around, see the city lights
The world keeps spinning and the moon still shines.
Everything we know goes on as it always has.
Get into my car, drive down familiar streets
Pass over the train tracks in the same worn leather seats.
It’s all so picture perfect-but it’s another life.
Intro:
I try to tell myself that life goes on
I try to act as if...
“Music is the medicine of the breaking heart.”
– Leigh Hunt (via grace-notes) (via quote-book)
I'm So Excited! And I Just Can't Hide It!
I got the job! I’m totally thrilled! I’ll be working at Ulta as a cashier (the one on Market Street) so come buy stuff there :) I have been looking for a job for so long and I finally got it. I feel so blessed. This job is more than just something to do because I have extra time on my hands. This job is going to get me the money to buy my car, pay my phone bill, pay for my insurance,...
This is the soundtrack to my life.
I was supposed to sleep over at Emily’s house tonight, but not anymore because my parents didn’t get home until 8:50 and once they got here, they wouldn’t let me take the car so they made me ask her to come get me. She lives in almost half an hour away from me. What a joke. Now I’m frustrated because I have basically no social life anymore. I think I’m just going to...
“And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depth until the hour of...”
– Khalil Gibran (via 77days)
Let's make plans together.
I just watched Leap Year and now I’m so bummed out. I really miss Jacob something fierce. I don’t know why I torture myself like this. Watching stories about love just makes me realize that I’m away from mine. Or rather, he’s away from me. I like the stories normally and they’re fun to watch when you have someone you love watching with you, but for me, it just makes...
Terrified by Katharine McPhee
You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You’re the thing that’s right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side
You set it again, my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time...
Dance like it's the last night of your life.
I have had a great day. I woke up, went to an appointment, went to the bank to deposit a check, went to the Barnes and Noble at the mall with Emily, and then went to eat. Now I’m babysitting, which means more money. THEN I found two gift cards. One had $26.88 and the other had $15.00. Today has been a great day, and for that I am thankful.
August 2010
16 posts
What are you waiting for?
I’ve been gloomy all day. I feel trapped and suffocated in my house. I need to get out and do something, the only problem I have is that I don’t have access to a car 5 days out of the week and I have approximately 3 friends I can count on to actually want to do something with me. I know this sounds like another sob story, and maybe it is, but I had to get it out somehow.
Stand up if you need love.
I found a new band; Fireflight. I love them! The lead singer is amazing and they have great lyrics. I’m hooked.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWOmfOah—o
Do you have to let it linger?
I’m not sure why but for some reason I cannot sleep tonight. It’s already 2 am. Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday and I want to make her day a good one. I am broke right now so she’s getting a home made gift and I hope she likes it. I really need this writer’s block to go away though. Hmm.
Shoe Heaven!!!! →
What I like.
I was going through some pictures on an old friend’s facebook profile when I realized something. I really like accessories. I love shoes, bags, earrings and sunglasses. Recently I’ve added watches to this list. When I was younger, I didn’t care what I looked like, I never cared what people thought of me, and I was a total tomboy. I was so against fashion or to phrase it better,...
“I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.”
– Audrey Hepburn (via girlwithoutwings) (via quote-book)
For reasons unexplained...
I have never felt so alone, afraid, and insignificant.
I've got the magic in me.
I keep telling myself that I need to stay positive. I’m not going to get a job with negative thinking. It’s so hard though. It’s hard to sit around doing call backs and filling out my applications, one by one, without getting any results. It’ll happen though, if I just stay positive and keep my head up. Right now I’m watching Freedom Writers with Emily. Ponder is by...
“Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.”
– Anonymous
“Life is about change. Sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it’s beautiful, but most...”
– ~ Unknown (via gatekeeper) (via seechelci)
Picture Perfect.
I hate this. Trying to find a job is so difficult right now. I’ve applied to so many jobs and still have no interviews scheduled, even though I have made calls to follow up on the applications. It’s stressing me out. To make it all worse, I have trouble sleeping at night, so then I’m up late and wake up late in the afternoon. I have to do dishes when I wake up, and then I go do...
July 2010
1 post
Can we pretend that airplanes in the nigt sky are...
I could really use a wish right now. Today was a terrible day. Nothing seemed to go right. To top off all the stuff that I thougt made it bad, my dad told me that I couldn’t drive and that he wanted my YOUNGER sister to do it because I concern him when I drive. I’m already feeling no good because of the day that I have had and now I can add feeling inferior to my little sister to the...
June 2010
7 posts
Isn't that just the way the cookie crumbles.
Still no letter…